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Sunday, October 11th, 2009
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October 11th, 2009 - hello world.
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| Saturday, February 21st, 2009
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February 21st, 2009 - :/
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I need him.
I actually don't function without him!
He's on fucking holiday whilst i'm here in fucking tears everyday.
What the fuck am i suppose to do!?
Pretend everythings okay and get on with life?
NO!
I'm sick to death of this!
I really am,
Its killing me inside and I don't have a clue what to do!
I can't feel like this anymore!
I love him so much it hurts!
And I don't think he really understands that!
Fair enough he was crying to me on the phone the other day.
But anyone can just cry can't they?
Noones helping and I can't help myself!
To be fair (Not to sound emo) But I'd rather be dead than without him.
My heart fucking aches! I cant stand it!
Its too painful now.
It hurts to just think about him!
All these other posts are about how much i love someone.... bullshit.
I've never felt liek this before. About anyone!
It's actually horrible, I just wanna crawl into a corner and when I come out itll all be okay!
He doesn't help at all, just get on ad stuff DOESNT WORK!
Dickhead!
He obviously has no clue!
Fucking men, i swear to god!
I hate them! Actually hate them!
They are so oblivious about everything.
They don't care.
Urghhhh, I'm ready to jump off a cliff right now!
I love you David Alan Foulks!!
♥
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| Friday, May 18th, 2007
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May 18th, 2007 - What the fuuuuuucckkk
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Ohhh my fucking god.
I haven't been on here since like December 2006
Wahahaha
As if
Mental
Well me and & Matt lasted 8 months.
I know! 8 Months!
Hahah ahh well its all gone to pot now.
And I'm back in the real world.... with a life.
I have a guy at the moment called Dave.
Seriously, i've never met anyone as lovely as him.
Not sex obssessed or anything. Well maybe a little.
Hahaha
Ahh well
So yeah. He works in zero!
And he's 22 :)
Haha I know, I thought Sam was bad.
Ive just realised that all my shit is on here. Like all my breakups and heartbreaks and everything.
Ive been reading through it and GOD DAMN
I was fucking emo as a young teenager!
Hahaha!
Ahh well. I had reasons.
But yeah atm, life hasn't been better.
Ive got my guy.
Ive got college.
Ive got my bestest mates
And I have my mummy.
And fuck me. I couldnt be happier.
All that shit with beck house ended too, only coz I faked being happy.
But it worked.
Silly Elsie has been punching walls and shit but thats okay.
Coz I have the best boyfriend in the world, and guess what!?
YOU DONT!
Wounded!
Anyways I'm gunna shoot.
Catch ya all later
Byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
Elsie
xxxx
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| Friday, December 22nd, 2006
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December 22nd, 2006 - Boo
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hiya guys
Havent been here in what? 5 months. fucking hell. well it's nearly that gay Christmas time again!
Update: Nana dies at Halloweeen. I split up with SAm a week after we started going out
I go out with MAtt Herbert now and I love him, Really love him!
We've been together nearly 3 months now! I think that might be my longest relationship ever lol! oh well
Anyways gunna go byee xxx
Elsie
xxx
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| Sunday, July 16th, 2006
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July 16th, 2006 - Heeheeee...
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Hello dear motherfuckers...
Well my life is going fucking fantastic...
I have a new man and his name is Sam
He works in subway & in Vivaz and he's propper mint, but considering hes 19 in a few months is a bit extreme, but you know what!?
I don't care
For once...
I used to be paranoid about what people thought about my love life and the guys I was with and I even went to the extremes of dumping them because my friends didnt agree
But this time you can all fuck off... the 3 most important people in my life are happy for me and thats all that matters
♥Vicky & Thomas
♥Gem*
Bless Gemma, when I told her tonight she went mental saying how happy she is for me and stuff... I think about it and say to myself, why can't other people be like that?!
I mean today Mel & Fenton were saying that he's emo and why am I going out with him... That pissed me off
I don't care what anyone thinks anymore apart from Vicky & Thomas & Gem* & Sam of course =P
On the other hand
Home life is shit...
Sara's birthday tomorrow...
She's going to ass-rape me, I havent got any money at the moment and I didn't buy her a present or even a card, I havent got the time or money to do it!
She wants me to buy her the box set of the mighty boosh on DVD which is like £35
She spent like 99p on my birthday pressie
A home-made Spongebob Squarepants and pionapple, and even a real Gary!
I must admit it was good but then she expects me to buy her something I can't afford...
I can barely afford fags for gods sake & I go mental without them
I don't have a clue what to do, I could sneak out of the house before she gets up & go to Sam's.
I can't remember where he lives
Shit
God Dammit!
Sillay me!
Ive got nothing to rant about anymore
I think ive ranted enough
Right... I'm going to sleep
Night night
♥ Love you Sam ♥
ElsheePie™
xxx
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| Monday, July 3rd, 2006
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July 3rd, 2006
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July 3rd, 2006 - Selfish people
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I'm with Ainsley, & Nobody can accept that I'm happy for once. I haven't been happy since I was with Lee and that was like a year ago =(
I don't understand, My sister wants to kick the shit out of him!
& Even my Mum said that I'm stupid and so does everyone else: Ok apart from Sammi, Ben & Gemma & Big Al are the only people that didn't laugh about it!
Fucking Alex... grr
Lucy came to DiY and asked me why and she got really pissed off and upset about it. I don't like it when people do that. Nobody wants me to be happy anymore, Ive realised I need to start thinking of myself more than other people. All I do in my life is help other people, & I still don't get thanked for it!
It annoys me, I feel like I'm the only one who can't be happy and everyone else can... I mean everyone is being so selfish at the moment! Even my best friends laughed at me, Some friends they are, eh?
Amy was pissed the other day and she was saying hes a prick and that and then she came to the point where she knew I wasn't going to let it drop and shes happy for me now, Only a select few people are!
People are so fucking selfish!
I mean I couldn't stay with Smilie because he lives in Whitby and I haven't seen him for about a month now! He was even upset when I ended it!
I mean it wasn't serious and it was long-distance relationship... Never had one before but I can tell you it's not a very nice thing to have, It's like an open relationship
Jesus this is turning out to be an essay, I think ive wrote more on here than I have in my english GCSE, Shit!
Nevermind, who gives really?!
I'm going now! I'm bored
Lots of love n tht
*Loves Ainsley ♥*
ElsheePie™
xxx♥xxx
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| Friday, June 23rd, 2006
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June 23rd, 2006 - Gaah
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... That's all I have to say... Gaah! Lifes going ok... Ive realised I don't need certain people in this world! I thought today! And I was like "Fuck you I dont need ypou!" I was so proud! I felt better for that!
Now Im kind of with Smilie (A really sweet 18 year old guy form Whitby - Yes I know... WHitby)
Oh well! Hes coming to see me tomorrow! Ive missed him so much! Adn I know that he cares about me alot, which makes me safe, everyone need to feel safe once in a while. Even me!
Well I left Graham School today! FOREVER Mwahaha! 10 Weeks of holiday to kill.. Well so far all Ive been doing is drugs and alochol and sex... Its shaping out to be a pretty good holiday so far... and its only just the beginning!
Beginning of a new life, new relationship! But ill never change the friendships I have!
I'd just like to say I love every single one of my mates! I don't know what I'd do without you crazy lot!
Especially you Sammi! I fucking love you the most! Your my heeeerro! hahah!
Right I love you all & I'll update sooon
Love you Smilie && Sammi!
Mwah
ElsheePie™
♥
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| Monday, June 5th, 2006
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June 5th, 2006
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well my dears, I haven't written in here for a fair few months!
Update on life: Love life is going ok I suppose
Home life is shite as always
School - wait... I dont go to school anymore! wooo!
Sorry but I'd like to tell everyone to ignore Willis' livejournal about Ben and everyone! Has anyone actually noticed that hes only insulted the people who hardly ever go on the internet or dont have livejournal, hmm quite quite fishy if you ask moi!
Anyways, ive become the ACM mother which is realli cool, I love all of ACM they are all fucking mint!
Ben = Fucking hilarious when hes battered and it generaly a lovely caring guy
Sammi = (Bens other half) Shes the bestest person I know! Shes the most beautiful girl I know!
Reavo = Hes beautiful too, lol! Fucking sorted guy
Lucy = Shes always happpy and smilie and it makes me happy (Reavos other half)
Carl = He can be a bit of a twat but we all love him the same
Lotty = (Carls other half) Shes propper sorted! Pretty and Smart, Carls a lucky guy
Andy H = Doesnt talk alot but when he does its something hilarious
Jani = (Andy H's other half)= The random girl usually been beaten up my Morley
Lil Andy = One of my closest mates, i can tell him almost everything! Ahhh all those times andy!
Lou = (andys other half) The best drinking buddy in the world! Shes mint pretty and clever!
Jacko = Random person
Anyways i gotta go to my maths exam now so ill talk later
Love you all!
Elsie xxxxxxx
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| Thursday, March 23rd, 2006
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March 23rd, 2006 - Well...
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Me && Dave have made up XD. So am happy about that. Oooo Sami has taken over the rocky horror, which means its going to be fucking awesome! I'm Magenta and is very scary and goth like ... strange, But its going to be so fucking cool! You better all come and watch it or i'll kick all your ass'! :O:O I got an A in my science A coursework! ME! AN A!!! My gawd, haha. Mr Jackson read it out and he was like checking through my work to see if it was an error! And it wasn't! Am well happy. So that means in going into the exam with C, Which means I don't have to take it again in college!
On another note, home life is pretty shite. Sara's always in a stress with me, today it was because I was upstairs and didn't hear her boyfriend at the door! I thought it was pretty pathetic! Quite quite lame to be honest.
Anyways I'm going to go and get changed
Bye bye everyone!
I love you all!!
Elsie
xxx
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| Monday, March 13th, 2006
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March 13th, 2006 - Grrr
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Omfg I feel like total and utter shite! I hate me, myself and I! Dave lied to me! Hes fallen out with Fern, Now he wont fucking pick up his phone! God knows what hes going to do next ... He fucking hates me now! You know why? Coz I'm a selfish, Immmature, lifeless teenager with no mates coz shes two-faced! Im ugly, fat, bitchy anf i hate myself! eveything iam is a nightmare!
Sometimes i wish i was 6 feet under!
I fucing hate life!!!
Love you so much dave!
Your my only family!
Love you so much!!!
PLLEASE FORGIVE ME!!!!!!!!!!!1
:'(
*runs away*
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| Saturday, March 4th, 2006
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March 4th, 2006 - GOD!
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Well guys! Me && Atkin are over! Hes felt the way for 2 weeks apparently *cough bullshit* I really couldn't give two fucks!! Nevermind! Well at the moment life is going pretty good, to be honest! 8 weeks til we leave school! Thank god, getting out of that shit hole will be the best thing I ever do!! I can't wait! Well other stuff .... I think thats about it! I'm currently ay my aunties! Smoking and drinking coffee and eating sweets and on msn, Is mint! I fucking love my aunties, shes more of a mother too be too be honest! You will all have too meeet her one day, she has a 3 legged cat and a cat with a heart-shaped bum hole! how weird is that!
Anyways off to smoke some more!
Love you all
A very happy elsie
xxx&heartsxxx
*BUZZ*
*Beem*
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| Wednesday, February 22nd, 2006
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February 22nd, 2006 - Long time no see!
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Hey guys!! How are you all this fine midnight!
Well life update!
Errmmm ... got myself a guy!
yesh yesh!
Happy Iam!!
Very happy indeed!
*beem*
Anyways, erm school half term!!! woohooo! Ive just been ungrounded becuase me, Sara, Katya, Shona, Will and Lauren got caught drinking!
So we gots a letter home! From Le Pigs!
Oh well!
I'm going round to Martins tomorrow!!
Wooohoooo!!!
Anyways, thats all thats happeneing in my life at the moment!
Cheer up Willis!
Love you all & Martin <33
♥
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| Thursday, January 19th, 2006
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January 19th, 2006 - Hello Everybody ... Long Time No see
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Hello guys, how are you all? I'm reasonable. I hate him! Yes. Him! He's a total and utter wanker and I really wish he would die a long slow and painful death! I'm all happy now! espcially after the text I sent him, It was all the anger inside me just came out, I was scarred of myself! Was quitre funny actually ... So yeah ... School is going ok! Home is ok ish ... me and Sara had a fight the other day ... like a proper fight! No-one won! But still, It hurt! Lol my nose hurts, she scratchjed it! Ghey! Oh well!
I Love You All Very Much!!
Elsie
xxx ♥
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| Saturday, January 7th, 2006
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January 7th, 2006 - Rollocks
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Right, to start ... I'm still ill and feeling like utter shite, I'm not allowed out tomorrow. It's Ghey!!
Another thing ... All this time ive been talking about this special guy, fuck it, you know who it is? Its Dave Roebuck From Bridlington! YES IM SAD I KNOW!!! BUT THER IS NO POIINT IN KEEPING IT A SECRET OF HES GUNA IGNORE ME ANYWAYS!!!!
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| Friday, January 6th, 2006
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January 6th, 2006
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January 6th, 2006 - AARGH!!!!
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ARGH, I HATE ILLNESS!!! :( SUCKS ASS! IVE BEEN OFF SCHOOL FOR THE PAST 4 DAYS BECUASE OF THIS STINKING THING (DON'T KNOW WHAT IT REALLY IS) MY GRANDMA SAYS ITS FLU, BUT SHE OVER-EXAGGERATES ... ALOT! SOOO I MIGHT NOT BE OUT TOMORROW, IF IAM I WILL BE ALL DEAD AND ARGH SO I WOULDN'T HUG ME OR ANYTHING, I DON'T WANT TO GIVE YOU MY DISEASE!! WHATEVER IT IS .... DAMN MY THROAT HURTS!! HA HES COMING TO SCARBY ON SUUUUNDAY * PRAYS TO GET BETTER* I WAS SUPPOSE TO BE MEETIN HIM TONIGHT! BUT I CAN'T IM DYING TOO MUCH, DAMN I PICKED A FINE TIME TO BE ILL ... DIDN'T I? SOMEONE UPSTAIRS OBVIOUSLY DOESN'T LIKE ME ^^^ DAMN HIM!!!!! .......... AAAAAAANNNYWAYS, MIGHT UPDATE TONIGHT!
I LOVE YOU LOTS LIKE JELLYTOTS!!!!!
xXxXxXx <333333
PEACE AND LOVE
ELSIE
<33333333
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| Saturday, December 31st, 2005
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December 31st, 2005
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WHAT A FUCKING PILE OF WANK!!!!!!! GRRR!!! DIDNT GET 2 SLEEP TIL LIKE 4AM!!! AARGH THEN I GOT UP LIKE 2 HOURS AGO!! OH GOD ITS NEW YEARS EVE!!! GOD I HATE THIS NITE!! GOD AND IM PROBS NOT GUNNA SEE HIM AGAIN!! HE GOIES BACK TODAY! WHICH MEANS IM GUNNA BE UPSET FOR AAAAGES, SO IF IM PISSED OFF IN TWN OR ANYTHING, DNT TRY AND CHEER ME UP PLEASE!!! THANKS ... RITE IM OIFF COZ SHONA IS HERE SO BYE VYE!!!!!!
LOVE AND PEACE!!#ELSIE
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December 31st, 2005 - PILE OF SHITE!!!
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WELL TOO START IT OFFF, WHO I WAS ON ABOUT B4, YES I STILL LOVE HIM VERY MUCH, IT ALWAYS GETS FUKIN WORSE DNT IT?! FUCKING LOVE! IITS A PILE OF ASHIT!! ANF I HATE IT! IT WAS ACOUSTIC NIGHT AT DIY 2NIGHT AND HE WENT AND HEW WAS WITH ME HUGGING MR AND KISSING ME!! FUKIN TEASE!! ITS NOT FAIR!!! THING IS HE DUZNT FUKIN WANT ME AT ALL!!!AND THATS WHAT FUKIN PISSES ME OFF!!!!!! GRRRR!! I NEEED A CIGERETTE!!!! NOW!!!! I LOVE HIM SO MUCH AND I JUST CANT GET OVERHIM!!! ITS SHIT AND GHEWY AND I HATE IT! BUT I LOVE HIM! GOD DAMN IM FUKIN PATHETIC!!!!!!!!! AND OOOOOH FCUK SCHOOL ON FUCKIN TUESDAY!!! WHOOOPDEEDOOO!!! FUCKIN NMOT!!!!!!! I HATE SCHOOL!!! PILE OF SHIT ASWELL!! THE ONLY THING THTS LOOKING UP ATM IS SOME OF MY FAMILY ACTUALLY TREAT ME LIKE IM THER! THTS MY UNCLE MARK!! WHOS JUST GIVEN ME A COMPUTER FOR MY ROOM!! SO I CAN STAY UP AND TLK 2 VICKY TIL LIKE 4AM??? OR SUMMAT!!! YEH ME AND VICKY R MATES AGAIN :D!!!!! BUT YEH APART FROM THE GOOD BITS, LIFE SUCKS ASS!!
WELL DONE TO EVERYONE WHO PLAYED AT ACPUSTIC NIGHT, WAS FUCKING AWESOME, APART FOR SOME PEOPLE WHO WERE THER!! GRRRRRROOOOWL!!!! ANYWAYS IM OFF COZ IM RAMBLING!! GOD I HATE IT WEN ID O THT! I ALWQAYS DO IT ON THESE BLOGF THINGS!! SEE IM DOING IT NOW BLABBERING ON ABOUT NOTHING!! FUCKIN HELL STILL BLABBIN, ELSIE ..... SHUT UP!!! THER THAT TOLD HER!!! FUUUUUUUCK
IM OFFF
BYEEEEE
FINALLY HEEHEE
LOVE AND PEACE, ELSIE
XOXOXOXOXOX
I LOVE YOU MYSTERY BOI!!!!!!
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| Tuesday, December 6th, 2005
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December 6th, 2005 - Hullooo
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Hullo everybody, I'm BORED as per usual! i'm annoyed coz iwasnt able to go to the gig!! I'm Fucking Cynical, Again!!! I Love Him So Mcuh, I Cn't Stop Thinking Aboput Him!!! It's so Awful!!!!!!!! *Cries*
Just wanting to dit at the moment!
bye, hopefully forever!
elsie
xxx
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